|Grumpy Genderqueer Exsistance
||[Nov. 8th, 2006|10:08 am]
So I met this guy, and we really hit it off and he wants to be friends with me, which is awesome, because I don't have a lot of guy friends, paticularily straight guy friends. And it's awesome, we're both nerds, we talk about our girlfriends and have lots of fun. Thing is he thinks I'm a guy. Which is great, because I kind of identify as a guy. Some times. But, I also identify as a girl. Some times. Problem I have is that, for all my, apparently successful effort, I still usually look like a girl, because that's what I was born as. And I don't know this guy too well, and I am utterly, utterly petrfied that he will find out that I'm genetically female and hate me. Or hurt me. Or something. It's scary.
I don't like this. I don't like being scared of something so stupid. But I know that bad things could happen to me for trying to be something that I'm not but that I am. Gah. This is just aggravating.